Jeda hari

 Last week, my peer review result at work released. They said, i have a good communication and coordination skill. I can follow the office rules, and also inisiative enough to start or doing the tasks. My weakness is my ability to make a decision.  I am a bit surprised, because it's obvious.  Yes, I am struggling with making decision especially life decision. I didn't expect people can see it from my job.  As i grow, a lot of my life decision was not choose by me, but my parent. Where to study, what activities, even chlotes. My mom can bought me chlotes even when i didn't join her shopping. I always accepted it. It can be double meaning. First, i don't wanna dissapoint her, i appreciate her choices, even if it wasnt really fit my style, i just accepted it. Also because thats her money, not mine. But second, it can also mean that i cannot make a decision for my self. About chlotes maybe seems like small thing, but it's not until i had to face hard choices for my life...

 Being organized person is important. But, not all of the people can be such that person. We have to deal with the diversity. Not because we are organized, we look down for anybody who don't. If, i evaluate myself, i am an organized enough person, not really but enough. So, i want to be more organized then i can be more productive and raising my value. So here is some activities that i planned to do : 1. Build daily schedule For becoming organized person, i start from making daily schedule. To be honest, i can see that my everyday activities already have pattern. So i write it down, and check the list when i have done with the list, one by one. 2. Choose one big milestone a day I try myself to not be stressed reaching bunch of targets everyday, so i choose three big milestone a day exclude my schedule. Example, today i want to deepclean refrigerator, tomorrow i want to clean the yard, etc. It manipulate my brain to do little thing but have a big impact. 3. No holiday for schedule I...